Class, Homework, and sitting on my butt.
Hello again, this is my first real post in this blog. I am still working on my goals/quality but things are coming together nicely.
First I am going to talk about class. Class today had to do with breathing and “feeling” your own body, kinky eh? We learned a type of circular breathing activity that involved lying on the floor with your legs propped up and bent, belly breathing it was called.
I actually have heard of this before, an only teacher (in high school I believe) had told me about/recommended doing it. Their reasoning was because if you look at babies, that is how they breath. It’s supposed to be more natural, I just found it challenging. My asthma, which is going to be a prominent character in these entries made his presence known while we did this. I did not have trouble breathing but I “felt” my breathing being shallower when I compared it to the breathing of the rest of the room. It depressed me a little bit but I didn’t tell anyone in class about it.
This reminds me, something else happened; I suddenly got a memory of waking up having a mild asthma attack. It happened last night too, three times. I’m a little scared because my asthma has always been a non-problem. Then again I could just be waking up in a panic. I don’t remember having nightmares but I very well could be, when I do have them and remember them I often wake up screaming.
We also had to do a random walk, a weird exorcise where we all kinda walk in a group but concentrate on the empty spaces between people rather than people. I realized a few things. First, I’m kinda a jerk because I zone out and won’t “move out of the way” when others and myself nearly collide. I just kinda keep going and make them move. What we did during these (after what our teacher calls a grounding exorcise, basically it’s a short meditation connecting yourself with your environment) was stop, then take not of how we were standing, any aches and pains and generally all those little things that we all ignore normally.
My right arm, hand, leg, and thigh hurt. Not in a wounded way but more tense. I also favor my left leg and my palms face behind me rather than inward toward my body. I also noticed that I automatically raise my chin when I stand still and kinda point my nose in the air. I wonder if I look snobby?
This didn’t help either. I have a feeling this class if going to make me confront my issues with my body head on- I really don’t like that.
Next time, body measurements, some thoughts on warriors and what its like to be one, pictures (because text posts are boring) and an update on my homework…
Oh yeah, homework. I am supposed to record how much time I spend sitting.
Since 8:15 on Thursday Night till 9:45 tonight I have spent: An hour in class (1) an hour driving (1) an hour at home before bed (1) an hour when I got up (1) about two hours between going to get my car fixed and being dropped off at my best friends job (2) about two hours sitting with my other friend (2) than an hour to school (1) than two hours in class (2) now an hour here doing homework (1).
That translates to 12 hours of my time sitting, this excludes sleep time. So I’ve been awake since 7… So I have literally been sitting all day.
I have to record this all the way till next Tuesday, already the numbers are looking bad.
Total time sitting this week: 12 hours
Total time spent awake: 15 hours
